Some days I just wish I was an ostrich and I could just hide my head in the sand.
Well my car woes still linger. Whatever was the problem last week is still there and now the car needs to overnight at the mechanics. Bummer!
I feel as if I have let my son down, by deciding to keep him at play school for a year longer. For one thing all of his friends have moved on and left him for big school. Even though he can’t fully express it I know he misses them. Also I think he finds the other children to kinda young for him. So he still likes school, but he is not as gungho as he was.
And you may remember his old shadow is no longer there and you know what he is really not gelling with this new shadow. But shhh! the new shadow doesn’t know this, because my son is quite pleasant.
I also have been finding myself stumbling when people realize that both children are in the same class. See I haven’t told many people that he is autistic. I don’t want people lowering their opinion of him or treating him different… because he is a fabulous kid! And I am not being too biased. So I find myself ignoring the questions in their eyes or trying to find a way to fill a pregnant pause.
Most days I could care less about what other people think! God has blessed me with two angels and they have both enriched my life in so many ways. But some days I find myself slipping into wishing that I could find a way to take away this uncertain path that my sweet baby has to take. And on days like these I find that if I could, I would make like an ostrich and bury my head in the sand!