Wazhat! Wahzat!


time didn’t stop

lights didn’t go off

lightening didn’t strike

the earth didn’t stop spinning

it is true that life goes on

because everything is as it was except

My Granny is gone.


Well as I predicted she lived to see her 94th birthday today and before the day was done she was gone.

She was my inspiration, I loved her dearly and I will miss her.

Rest In Peace Granny Lucille Leacock.


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A game of waiting.

Today on a whim I picked up the phone and called my grandmother.

Not knowing if she would know who was on the other line or if she would care to talk on the phone.

It was a short call

I said to her I love you Grannie

and between laboured breaths my grandmother- my grannie said to me:

I love you the most!

My heart broke.

It is hard knowing that the time is almost near.

It is even harder when you realise that we are in essence waiting for her to pass.

I am so selfish though that I want her to live forever. But her organs are failing and seeing that she is going to be 94 in 2 weeks they (the doctors) are not able to do anything other than wait.

So even though I keep insisting that she will wait until after her birthday if she is indeed going, each time a phone rings or my phone ping I fret that it is some one saying those words that I am not nor will ever be ready to hear.


I am glad I called because I got to hear her say she loved me.





God Pins

I admit it I love Pinterest.

For me it is a great de-stressor which is funny as many people have confessed to getting stressed out by the perfection of some of the pins.

Some of the pins though hilarious can be in my opinion a little bit risque. And I follow some photography boards which are beautiful but exposes me to a lot of voluptuous nudity.

My hubbie saw my interest in Pinterest and decided he needed to do a board like site as well and he would call it GodPins. And he did. It is really very new but it a place where you can pin all those items that remind you of your faith, your religion, the bible or are inspiring to you. Oh and of course any other thing that you wish. With a name like GodPins you know that it all about keeping you inspired and rich in your faith and love for God.

Please take a visit and try it out and see if it is for you.

Follow Me on GodPins

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It’s all in the attitude

the shower head broke in our bathroom and we had water spew all over the room.

so to have a shower the husband removed the shower head and the water flowed straight from the pipe.

I thought it very inconvenient. BUT

My daughter jumped into the shower and exclaimed with delight …”I am bathing in a fountain YAY!!”

and you know when it was my turn I couldn’t help but giggle because I honestly didn’t see a busted shower but a fountain. LOL


I wrote this list 2 weeks ago and I thought I would share.

20 things I am grateful for right now:-

  1. New Friends
  2. Warm weather ( it has gone all grey and down right nippy been in a sweater all day)
  3. Fun family moments
  4. time to spend with my family
  5. my talents
  6. Pinterest
  7. Diane being in town (my sister in law) (She went back to Canada)
  8. Technology:- it keeps me in touch with my family and friends through facebook, internet, phone, bbm :D
  9. Being healthy ( all the kiddies and I have gotten a flu and are on meds)
  10. my children
  11. love
  12. God’s prescence
  13. God
  14. my children’s health ( had to nebulise the youngest she and her twin have a respiratory infection)
  15. Finding an educational CD that the big daughter is actually using
  16. Food on the table
  17. Gas in the car
  18. Hair on my head, albeit it is unruly and going grey. I still have plenty
  19. roof over our head
  20. Being alive to talk about it all.

It does make a huge difference being thankful does it not.

Updated a little bit  we are sick but you know what still have lots to be grateful for.


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Flu season

Motherhood is a strange phenomenon.

I find myself gazing into my little ones eyes and wishing that I could freeze that moment in time and they stay young forever.

Frequently I lament at how fast they are growing, while simultaneously looking forward to watching them grow and blossom into the phenomenal human beings that I know that they can be.

Today as all four are fighting a cold?a flu? sinus bug ?who knows what it is.

I find myself  loving their sweet , cherubic faces but wishing they were older so that I can be less fearful that they brain would not be addled due to too high a fever.



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2012 is over and strangely enough I was happy to see it done.

The year had a very tragic film over it…

It seemed someone that I knew or used to know died every minute of 2012.

And that doesn’t include all the famous people of my age that are no more.

There were huge family outbursts and possibly irreparable damage done there.

The reality of our family dynamic is scary to think of… hmmm.

There were too many trips to the hospital and the inevitable ugly side of the aging process reared it’s head too many times this year. To put it bluntly I have been sitting anxious all year wondering if that out of the ordinary phone call is bringing bad news of sickness or death.

Money just seemed tight all year.

Oh and that terrible Sandy hurricane that wasn’t so bad for us personally but damage New York and other places like Cuba, Haiti and in Jamaica as well


If I really look at the year and put aside what I mentioned before I have to say it was a good year

I made three trips back to my home land Trinidad… three trips is just unprecedented for me. (Thank God my sister works with an airline:D ) I get so much family love when I go home.

Talking about family my house was full of family … and friends visiting. My little nephews stayed with us for 3 weeks wow!  My Dad visited for 3 weeks as well. At one point I had 14 persons sleeping under my roof.

My mother-in-law gifted us with a new kitchen  a new stove and kitchen cabinet refaced. It is so pretty who says things can make you happy. My kitchen makes me smile every morning :D

After 4 years we finally have a new car… that fits us all and a guest yay!! Well it is a new to us car but who cares if it is used it makes us happy. LOL

Homeschooling for my son is going well. He seems much happier what more can we ask right.

The hubbie and I are closer than we have been in a long while so the family unit is tight

and after all the anxiety I am happy to report that my father, his father, my mother and his mother are alive and well and also so is my Grandmother who celebrated her 94th birthday in 2012.

And all my kiddies are happy and healthy growing so fast and joy of joys I started back painting. wish me luck in keeping it up in 2013

I guess if you stop focusing on the negative long enough you would be able to see that the positives no matter how small will always outweigh the negatives.

So I have to say Thank you and good bye 2012 and with God by my side ( okay carrying me along)

I embrace 2013 and look forward to whatever may come.

Happy New Year to you all!

I don’t make New Year’s resolutions but I do have certain goals and challenges that I have set for this year. No pressure though. I do hope to be writing/blogging more this year so hope to see more of this blog and my others that I have neglected. I am challenging myself to paint something everyday… missed today though but not fretting tomorrow I’ll just do 2 small ones LOL.

hope all is well with you all.






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